Well, our Quench-It building is still not quite done, but we are SO close! I have 8 applicants today ready to be interviewed to work for us. The post has been private and sent only to kids who have reached out to me so far. Tomorrow I will make it public and hopefully we will get enough applicants to fill the roster of employees.
The waiting has been SO frustrating though. I know that I haven't ever been a very patient person, but this forced situation was completely out of my hands. I like to think I am in control of my life, but in reality it isn't at all. Like so many things I worry about, my worries are recreational so far as I cannot control them. Patience is a virtue I desperately need to develop but I have not wanted to ask God for patience because He will only send me more things to develop that attribute and I don't want anymore situation that need me to be patient about them.
On the upside, all this time--waiting and being frustrated--has helped me get my health in check as well as chip away at my weight. I'm still 10-15 pounds from where I'd like to be ideally but I am closer and I feel so much better. My thyroid is well in hand now and my other hormone issues--thanks, menopause!--are coming back to normal too. But that has been along and rather expensive process. I guess that is the gist of this whole year for us: a long and expensive process!
I am happy to report that I have made several good friend sin this ward and have loved to feel a part of a ward family again. I made the mistake of praying for friends--only to be called to be the Relief Society president in the ward. That is one way to make friends. Just wasn't what I had in mind--but the Lord has a wicked sense of humor. But I am grateful, regardless. I have come to love the sisters int eh ward and my testimony of the Savior and His atonement is only deepened as I serve Him. I also have come to learn how important my personal conversion and commitment is to my relationship with God. I am certainly blessed as I remain committed and converted. But my place with conversion and commitment is reaffirmed with acceptance of prophetic guidance and local direction. We do not have time to be worried about "how things were always done" if the prophet directs us differently, we need to get on that bus with him and forget the old ways. Goodness comes as we do that too.
One unexpected thing that has come of all the hurry up and wait along with the accompanying frustration and worry is that my relationship with Genius golfer has been strengthened too. He really is amazing and I cannot praise him enough for all he has done to not only support us financially while I have waited to open our business, btu all his dedication to see our building done right and correct and as close to budget and time frame as we hoped. He has figured out SO many problems--many that weren't really his problem to begin with--and has straightened them out himself. He is the real superhero in this experience.
Time for self reflection and growth isn't what I planned on when I started this year. But it is exactly what I have been given. I just hope I am progressing in my personal development as the Lord would have me--otherwise I have missed the purpose of my journey this year.
