Supposed To Do

Last night as I was sleeping I must have dreamt about all the things on my "to do" list this week. It was an unsettled night. That list gets longer as the weeks go on, and yet there is very seldom a spot to write something I want to do just for me.

I exercise because I am supposed to do it, according to my doctor.

I do laundry because I am supposed to do it, or else what would my family be wearing?

I make menus and do grocery shopping because I am supposed to, else what is my family to eat?

I take kids hither and yon because I am supposed to, or how will they get there?

I visit ten different schools' PTA boards this month, because I am suppose to for my job in PTA this year.

I go visiting teaching, because I am suppose to and I feel guilty if I don't.

You know, maybe the guilt all these things induces in me is why I keep doing them month after month. That cannot be the correct motivation for getting things done, however. I just hope I get credit for doing what I am supposed to do, regardless of my attitude about each thing. That may well be my only hope.